‘No Vacancy’

10 years ago

By Justine Nason
Ashland District School

My thoughts won’t work
Properly.
There are too many of them,
All fighting for space,
Space that’s limited,
Space that doesn’t really exist.
And I forget things,
Stupid things.
(“What did I just say?”)
My mind’s
Cluttered, and I’m
Unfocused.
I don’t even know what
The thoughts are
They’re just
There,
Existing and taking up space.
There’s too much
To think about.
(“What did I just say?”)
My mind won’t
Function
Properly.
I’m a mess.
I get sad
(“-divorce, and we’re moving.”)
And I’m unmotivated,
And
I want to write,
To draw,
(“Where?”)
To do something,
But I can’t.
“The government priority was reconstruction, not-”
School fills my mind.
The information feels useless.
“Memorize
The slope-intercept formula.”
I’m a mess
And I’m bogged down
And I forget things I just said.
I forget things
That I know by heart.
The system is
Overloaded,
Unmercifully
Overfilled
And I forget things I want
And need,
These things are
Important.
And
I can’t remedy it.
I’m at a loss,
An impasse,
Stuck in one point in time
With overbearing thoughts that
Cloud my mind.
Everything is murky
And blurry
And unfocused
And I can’t straighten it out